Thursday, 10 April 2014

So this is what you meant. When you said that you were spent...

It's been a tough couple of months.  Before Christmas I signed a pro contract with Tibco, training was making me stronger, I was recovering and adapting. Things were boding well for the season ahead with an awesome team, staff and sponsors. It hurts to write this blog at home. I've been struggling with an endocrine condition on and off for a while. The early season one day races and world cups in Europe are brutal when you are on top form let alone when you are at your weakest. I struggled through it whilst my team mates raced aggressively mixing it up with top 10's. 

Kidding yourself that you are fine is exhausting. Instead of flying back to the States I made the decision to come home and get to the bottom of it. Trying to soldier on through is not going to get me anywhere in this sport other than deeper into this hole I have dug, my health has to come first. Filling up the pack is never what I had in mind. There isn't a quick fix, I have very little patience so me and my type A are just going to have to suck it up. I've been experimenting with some alternative medicine. In the last 10 days I've given reiki, reflexology, acupuncture and homeopathy a go, you can never be too cynical until you've tried it. I am sporting a lovely bindi from an acupuncture bruise!

I should have a clearer prognosis next week, for now its about keeping things in perspective and keeping my head screwed on. If I get the urge to accomplish something in the next couple of weeks I might even finish up my Gold Duke of Edinburgh award (not even kidding).
This is about right! Piked from Courteney Lowe who has overcome so many hurdles

Same number pinning ritual for every race

Team sign on, all smiles before all hell breaks lose

Maxxis tyres are the best- none of us flatted once and we rode in some cruddy conditions!

Dodging the cobbled berg carnage in belgie (far left)

(Credit to Anton Vos for the pictures)

1 comment:

  1. Being brutally honest, life has never dealt you with the easiest route to take. Except time and time again when life has thrown you a curve ball you have stood back up and found a new way to achieve what you wanted. I think the cliched statement "when life gives you lemons" is very applicable for you, because when life gives you lemons you will find some way to make it into brownies or a biscuit that sounds repulsive but tastes incredible. So life has thrown you another little challenge. In the words of the famous Vince Lombardi, "It's not whether you get knocked down, it's whether you get up again." Now I have had the pleasure of knowing you for twenty years and knowing that you will always get back up stronger and faster and fitter than before, despite however hard it might seem at first. Keep looking towards your dreams and goals and believing in yourself, you are the strongest person I know and it will come right. I will finish with a quote from the great Nelson Mandela, "The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."